The kind of love you write about

One of the gifts Mason got me for my birthday were these Wrangler shorts, and before I even ordered them I imagined this photoshoot with him in one of his many pairs, matching mine. However, I never could’ve dreamed these photos would turn out so incredible — I didn’t even have a location in mind for these! But I think it’s because they truly capture so much true love and happiness in them and that’s why they’re my favorite of us ever.

I never knew I could feel it all so deeply. It seriously brings tears to my eyes when I see just how happy he makes me and how I used to believe a love like this wasn’t out there for me, or just wasn’t real. But it is real. Because of him, I believe in soul-mates and love at first sight. He’s everything I could’ve hoped for — and my old college counselor had me make a list of things I wanted in a future husband. We have a song, you probably know it. But it means a whole lot to us and defines our relationship pretty well.

“I was just coasting, never really going anywhere. Caught up in a web, I was getting kinda used to stayin’ there. and out of the blue, I fell for you.”

Kacey Musgraves, Butterflies

Before Mason, I was so sure all guys were the same, wanted the same thing, and would eventually waste my time — I think at some point we have all felt that way. Let down, broken-hearted, alone. I wasn’t even looking when I met Mason. I was over the game, ready to graduate college, and move on to better places. Despite being excited to be talking to and hanging out with him (I had my eye on him for a few weeks thinking he was the cutest guy ever), I truly didn’t wanna let my guard down and go through another “talking” stage to be left in the dirt — I was careful with guarding my heart.

Though, after literally hanging out with him everyday since the night we met in person, I was completely caught off-guard by how into me he was and how into him I was. We hung-out the next day, and the next day, and the next. We wanted every spare second between our schedules to be spent together and we used our time to get to know each other and go on little dates — that was different. It felt good knowing he wanted to spend all his time with me and I with him. For the first time in my life, I felt like someone’s number one priority, and we’d only just met.

I fell in love with Mason gradually and then all at once. Honestly within a matter of only knowing him a few weeks. I knew it way before I said it too, and so did he. (He later even told me that after our first date, he told his mom he was gonna marry me one day!) I moved into his house with him after only knowing him a short 3 months — I had never lived with a guy before!! Admittedly, I was a little nervous. I’m not one to make rash decisions, in fact I’m probably one of the most indecisive people ever, but the timing felt right. It was like I’d known him my whole life, like he was the missing piece I needed to feel complete. I now 100% believe in the saying, “when you know, you know,” and we knew. Time is a fickle thing, love doesn’t fit in a time-frame.

“Kiss full of color makes me wonder where you’ve always been. I was hiding in doubt till you brought me out of my chrysalis. and i came out new, all because of you.”

Kacey Musgraves, Butterflies

I didn’t know it at the time, but before Mason, I was lost. My family admits now they were worried about me then. I got down to a mere 105 pounds, and while I was pouring myself into my schoolwork and studies, coming off a 7-year breakup and ends to some smaller relationships, I felt alone and depressed. Reflecting back on that time, I realize how not okay I really was. I sought counseling at my college, which actually helped, but I just wasn’t myself. I realized I hadn’t been for a really long time, the only difference was that for the first time, I was really alone. I felt drained and damaged.

Since being with Mason, old parts of myself have come back — along with some plushy, happy-weight lol. It’s been beautiful seeing those parts of me I had hidden away for so long return. I’m the best version of myself because of that man and it’s a noticeable glow that my family is happy to see. His hard-work and drive towards making a better life for us is as contagious as that smile of his, I feel incredibly motivated and supported to pursue my passions. He never stops exciting me, surprising me, and making me laugh. He’s more thoughtful than I even believed men could get and he’s literally redefined what I thought it meant to be truly happy and completely in love.

“NOW I REMEMBER WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO FLY, YOU GIVE ME BUTTERFLIES.”

Kacey Musgraves, Butterflies

I feel it when I’m waking up to forehead kisses, love notes, and fresh-made coffee. In the constant words of affirmation and cuddles. In surprise dates with freshly picked flowers and doing absolutely nothing together for hours and being totally content. While cooking dinner together just to late-night snack, driving around listening to our favorite songs and reminiscing on old memories. In being absolute weirdos together for hours and going to the store together because he worries about me in this crazy world,

Now I know that real love is always being the shoulder to cry on, always rooting for each other, always wanting the best for each other, always giving each other the benefit of the doubt, always having each other’s back. It’s always being there for support, for questions, during sad times and exciting times, the highs and the lows. It’s in the small moments of gratitude, and the big exciting moments of life — just always being there.

It’s only the beginning of our love story, I know there are so many great moments to come and share with you all. It’s hard to put into words how it feels to be so in love and be so loved, respected, and cared for in return day-in and day-out, but I’m going to try because this is the kind of love you write about.

As always,

Ara

Shorts: Wrangler | Top: Urban Outfitters | Hat: Urban Outfitters | Boots: Aldo (Tezza collection, sold out) | Earrings: Kendra Scott

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